Starting Over

One of the biggest things that I have been having problems with is getting myself to exercise. When I was in high school, I think the heaviest I was at was 120. You see, I grew up with a father who loved food. Every occasion was rewarded with food. Got good grades, where do you want to go and eat. Did something good, where do you want to go and eat. Hey it's Sunday, after church, where do you want to go eat. And we aren't talking about fast food places here. My papa loved going to restaurants where you had to sit down and eat your meal. He loved Japanese restaurants for their noodles, he loved Filipino restaurants because he is Filipino. He also loved going to the hotels for their lunch buffets. So I developed this love for food. I was always told to eat when you are happy. Food tastes better than when you are unhappy. I'm always happy:D Anyways, I've struggled with my weight after I got married. I also struggled with trying to get myself to exercise. Then yesterday I saw a friend of mine who has accomplished so much by just doing it. She looks great and she feels great. I remember when I first met her, you would not believe that is what she looked like before and how she looks now. And it inspired me to go and do it.

Many times before I've started and tried, but something, let's just say I had excuses, that I had to stop doing what I was doing. Finally this past May 13 of this year, I found out why I was having such problems. I was severely hypocalcemic. My calcium levels were so low that it was causing an irregular heart beat and all the muscle pains I was feeling. Roland kept telling me to go and exercise, but that would have made it worse. The internist explained to me, that I could have died. Fortunately I didn't. I attribute that to God being in control. Now I'm on a strict calcium regiment and I don't feel these pains anymore.

Now I am also inspired to push myself to get this over and done with. I want to be healthy for my kids. I want to make sure my second chance at life is not thrown away. I'm going to get over myself and just do it. Because that's the only person stopping me. Me. I'm going to make this change. And I started yesterday with the Couch to 5K program. Today I did my first day of Hip Hop Abs. I'm going to do my best to push myself to seeing that I get the results I want. I am also happy Roland is going to be doing the Couch to 5K with me along with my two kids who are enjoying the freedom to run outside. My girl chooses to stay home because she's tired she explains. That's okay. She's active enough. I am just blessed that I have a second chance of life and that really I'm going to do my best to make the most of it.